in good time.

            I knew these eight weeks would fly by. I knew I would be at the end of the trip wondering how it could have gone so fast. So here I am, trying to grasp the fact that this time next week I will have already been home for a day, that I will be getting ready to start my senior year of college while planning and praying about what to do next. I went into this trip believing God would give me an answer about what to do after college, even if it was just knowing whether or not I would stay in the States or go abroad. It wasn’t too long after getting here that God took away that expectation.

            We usually didn’t know our ministry for the week until Sunday night and even then there was a possibility of it changing throughout the week. We didn’t know if we would be coming back to the ministry we were at so we had to take in the time we had there for what it was, irreplaceable. Thinking about what we would do the next week or even that afternoon took away from the people that were with us in that moment.

            I wanted to come home with the assurance of what I should do after school, but instead I’m coming home with the assurance that all I am promised is today. I’m leaving these two months knowing that God is above my perception of time because His is perfect. I’m leaving knowing that in whatever time I have, I am called to seek The Lord. By seeking Him day by day, I will automatically be in His plan for me. I don’t have to worry about the future or the past because He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He will lead me to the future by me simply being with Him now.

            I think of how quickly my team bonded, how much we’ve grown together in this short amount of time, and how we have learned to “LIVE FOR TODAY!” as my teammate Mandy will yell if you mention coming days. We’ve lived knowing this time will end but that this is only the beginning. God has used this time in so many ways for each of us and He is going to continue to do so as we go home, as we enter into a new time. I am sad to begin preparing to leave this beautiful country and incredible people, but I know that God has immeasurably more for each of us as we continue to seek Him. He has an abundant, full life as we choose His Kingdom above all else. To my team, I know this is your heart and I’m so excited to see you all walk in it. I love you all so much.

            I’m not leaving with the perfect plan all spelled out for me, but I am going home knowing God’s plan is perfect and I find that by simply being with Him wherever I am.

One thought on “in good time.

  1. Oh, Hannah, how wise you are becoming. I am so proud for you that you are “stretching” yourself beyond your limits, seeking experiences and stepping more and more out of your comfort zone.. God does that for us and then we either are aware of it as it is happening or some time later, when you go, “Oh, so that’s what that was”..

    When I knew a new addition to our family was coming, as I did with you and all the grandbabies that followed, my daily prayer was that each of you would be born healthy and happy. Healthy in body, mind and spirit and happy in all things. We dash through this life of ours, focusing on one thing or another, insignificant things that slowly take our focus off what is most important, our relationship with our Heavenly Father.. You got that going on!! which goes back to the healthy and happy.. As Uncle Scott and Marc grew up, I tended to share what small snippets of wisdom I thought I had. a couple of biggies to me was that you can be rich in a lot of things other than money, and you should start each day with a smile on your face and a song in your heart. You are slowing become aware of that song and smile..You, my sweet girl, are so rich, and blessed.. and we, your family, are blessed by you.. Your experiences as you sit at God’s table beside and among like believers, are shaping you, draw them in, contemplate them, then move slowing through each day, healthy and happy, content in the knowledge that there are two sets of footprints, your hand is being held and you will always wake with a smile and a song because you know that God is good and his love is everlasting..

    I would also say, take time to share with and engage in meaningful conversation with each one in this crazy Frazier clan.. We are 24 strong and that’s just your immediate family.. Each one has a story to be told, how their faith was formed. just their outlook on life. .. You even have a 93 year old Great Grandma with a nugget or two.. Once again, that means stepping out of your comfort zone.. I promise you will have memories, just like the ones you formed with your “new” family that will make you smile for time to come.. After all, we were just part of the family you arrived into.. Quirky, yes, but always faithful..

    Stay safe.. see you soon.. and, always remember, that you are loved unconditionally by many people, but always, always by our Heavenly Father.

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