I want to be heaven-minded.

            I would like to do a research experiment on the word “beauty.” I want to ask people from all different ages/cultures/socioeconomic levels, etc.. how they would define it. I want to know the image that comes to mind when someone says something is beautiful and I want to know why that is.

            So maybe I won’t actually end up doing this (but if you know anyone who would like to fund my studies/travels to do so, let me know), but I want to know why this word is so powerful. Why does this word take up so much space in girl’s thoughts? Why do girls strive and fight with calories and style trends to defend one definition? Why do we think one word makes up so much of who we are?

            I have believed the lie that my worth is tied to my relationship status, and that my relationship status is because of how I look. I have believed the lie that there is something wrong with me because of these things, that the “beauty” thing or desirable thing just passed over me. My, my, my, how silly that sounds, how much I let lies grow in my head. One of the wisest, sweetest girls I met on my trip this past summer, Heather, said something that I will never forget about the lies we believe. She said she knows it’s a lie if it distracts us from Jesus, if the lie makes us think more about ourselves and less about Jesus than it is simply not true. Truth from God always pulls us closer to Him. Worrying about how I look and believing I am not worth relationships, makes me look at myself and pulls me away from what Jesus would have for that moment.

            The funny thing about all this is that beauty is actually a gift from God, the enemy has just done a terrific job of twisting it into something it wasn’t intended to be. Ecclesiastes 3:11 says, “Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end.” God has promised that He will make everything beautiful, every single thing, in its own time. This is who God is, He takes something and makes it beautiful in His timing. He is the creator of the definition of beauty and His is the one I want. I the worldly definition of beauty, it will fade. I will spend so much time chasing it to realize it is unattainable and unsatisfying. Whereas I can choose to live out of the eternal perspective He has placed in my heart, and live by His truth, His definition of beauty. Since I cannot see the scope of His timeline, I have to choose the present and give up worrying about the rest. I have no idea what my life will look like after this year, but I know He will make it beautiful in His time. I choose to walk out of these lies and into the freedom He has given by choosing His truth. I am free to turn my eyes from comparing my life to others, from focusing on myself, and believing crippling lies. I am free to walk in the beauty of this life, the beauty of pursuing Him and leaving all of me behind. I want to be heaven-minded.